Do I trust my instincts? No, they are fickle. My feelings are trying to be the kingdom of God focused but I am living in the world. I see the rich getting benefits of this world. They have the nice homes, clothes and jobs. Yes they work hard for that money and benefits. I get it. I also see people on the poverty level scraping to get by. Those with less financial resources continue to be insufficient to make it through the month with enough. Something always has to be sacrificed.To be clear,this is not a democrat or republican issue for me. I am not a fan of division but of peace. I say I have God so all is well but really. If I was honest is it OK? Not really. Honestly it is hard to have faith in God’s provision in poverty circumstances. Yes, there are those that support poverty level families in various ways. Those caring people are on the right track. I am thankful there are still caring people in this world, not just evil people. But I wonder, are people of poverty supposed to grin and bear it when they get leftovers? Is it wrong for them to want the things of this world that some have? I am not referring to envy. I am referring to basic provision. Are Christian’s supposed to “only” look for God’s riches? Maybe so, but what does that mean to the ones who can have resources vs. the ones that cant? This is a question I have tucked in my mind, brewing answers.This question is wrapped around the one about why God allows things to happen. I guess both questions will never be answered for me. I’ll continue to have faith. I still want to hope. I will pray for grace and mercy for my questions.

By the way please don’t tell me of your belief in God or your unbelief in God. Your opinion of God is not the issue.The issue is not political or who is president or which party you affiliate with. Opinions are not answers either.The point is trying to stay sane in life with these questions.

Until Next Time,

Heidi💜