I find myself at a place of discord several times in a day. My writing has taught me to heal a little each time I start a new prompt. What writing does is distract me from thinking about my bitterness toward anything about my life. I escape to an alternate reality that let’s me release all the hate, jealousy, shame, or guilt. This alternate reality lets me escape to a world that is so much more of a place of complete sanity.
The place that I want to visit the most is Forks Washington. That’s the setting of one of my favorite series, The Twilight Saga. I will leave some pictures to both here in my post…
There is a picture I have that is of a lighthouse keeper’s house attached to a lighthouse that has seemed like the perfect place to be for me. I imagine walking along the sandy path of the fence to that house. The scent of the air and ocean life invite my lungs to fresh, salt air. I take in a deep breath and then let the air out of my lungs completely. I feel relaxed as my eyes witness the first few glances of the warm sun as it begins to rise in the East. The horizon, the place where the sky meets the water, becomes hues of pink, orange, and yellow. I find a place to sit on the sand so I can begin my morning ritual of stretching out my tight body after a good night of sleep. The sand seems to form to my legs. After I stretch my legs, I lay back to place my head on the soft, warm sand. I can feel the grittiness of the sand as I braid my fingers through it. I let go of all the tension in my body. It’s at this moment that I feel my heart rate slowing down to an even rate. My breath becomes much less labored. I give in to the peace and comfort of my place in this world right now. I am free.
“Our feet are planted in the real world, but we dance with Angels and ghosts.” ~ John Cameron Mitchell.
I really like the above quote by John Cameron Mitchell. This is so inspiring that we are dancing with Angels and ghost. I think about my loved ones. How I sometimes smell a scent in the air that reminds me of them. Or times I feel a cool breeze behind me when I am in the middle of doing something. Memories are great when they are good, right?
Who you gonna call? GHOSTBUSTERS (I couldn’t help but think of the song OR THE movie. This movie premiered in the year 1986. Recently there was a remake of the movie. Ah, nostalgic a little? I was! I am now at the age where I see remakes of song and movies. My doctors are younger than me plus I have a lot of experience with making mistakes and good memories. I am pretty sure this gets even better with age.
I had a birthday this year that made me Fifty😁. 6-23-1974, yep, that’s the day. Now, I don’t claim to know everything like I thought I did as a teenager. By the way, I have a teenager. Seventeen to be exact. Pray for him and me cause from here on out life becomes even more of a natural disaster. Heaven help us. I personally didn’t like that age at all. In fact, I felt like a fish out of water. I often felt out of place. That was also 6 months to a year after my TBI (traumatic brain injury). So, I double felt like a fish out of water. That’s twice…aha! Those were the days I was totally out of character. That’s water under the bridge. No, I won’t reference Adele here BUT, if you know you know. Also, I have gained wisdom to not give a rat’s booty as much as I used to. That’s nice, huh? I have also reached the age where I am always, permanently ready to go to bed. Sleep is my friend. One of my Best Friends.
Okay, so I will reference Adele,
People call me weird. Well, I am not sure if they do? But if they did, that would be okay. It took me 50 years to accept myself. Maybe, I was the one that thought I was weird all these years? Yes, I gain from improvements. We all do. Isn’t it wonderful to feel free like we did when we were kids? We are not as free as we were when we were kids. But at 50, I am without peer pressure to an extent. So that’s a step ahead.
Life is ironic Take it from here, Alanis Morissette…
let it roll off of your back like water does on a duck’s back. You will be okay, I think.
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