Life  Life is the biggest challenge I will face in the next six months.

Racing thoughts,anxiety,rapid heartbeat,cold hands, and feet. Should I do this should I do that?. These were the thoughts as Don first opened his eyes. Just the thought of getting the correct paperwork in the right hand made him nervous. What if there is a hold back? What if I don’t give the doctor the right information? “Just stop,” his wife said. “You are making yourself feel so out of control.” Don took a deep breath. He walked over to the couch to plop down. His wife scrambled around opening and shutting cabinet doors, looking in the fridge,then searching the pantry. “Please calm down, Don.” Jan said, “I am running around here like a chicken with my head cut off. I can make us breakfast. We both need to eat a nutritional  meal before we face our day.” Don’s wife was normally the anxious one. She was the one who had a bully as a friend in school. This bully scared her for life. He picked at her so much that she thought everyone was trying to make her into the bad guy. She heard his voice on repeat, saying, ” You are doing that all wrong.” Because of his constant teasing back then, she suffered from PTSD now. She thought that other people thought the worst of her. So, she tried to make up for it by ignoring her needs above other’s needs. Having no self-love or respect was weighing her down. As I sat on the couch, I was thinking about how much I loved Jan. When she placed a plate of pancakes with syrup with a side of bacon in front of me, I got up to hug her. I also knew that life would be okay. We can do this…

Until Next Time,

Heidi💜